How have I gone without writing anything for almost a month?!  I really thought it had only been a couple of weeks.  Remember when we were kids and time seemed to go so slowly?  When does that switch flip and time speed up?

I've been thinking a lot recently about friends and family, relaxing and working.

I made a concious decision  a long time ago to not be friends with people that take a lot of my energy.  As I've gotten older I've learned that friendship should be a give and take.  That doesn't mean that you shouldn't lean on your friends when you are going through a bad patch.  I needed my friends last year when John and I went through a horrible time.  My friends gave me the most amazing support--I couldn't have made it without them and I hope I can give them back a portion of what they gave me.  That doesn't mean my family isn't supportive.  They are.  It's different though and hard to quantify.  My family will always be my family and although we may be angry at each other or hurt by each other, we will always forgive and move forward.  Friends can choose though and sometimes make the choice to move on without you.  I feel like I've chosen wisely and although some of my friends I see only rarely, they are all important to me and I love them all.  I hope that once I get a little more done around here I can give Christina, Crystal, Amy, and so many more the attention they deserve.

Relaxing is something I'm not good at.  I always feel like I should be doing something.  John doesn't help--he can't even sit in the hot tub for 20 minutes without talking about all the things we have to do.  I agree with him--the amount of projects we have right now is overwhelming when I think about them all.  I am trying to focus on one thing at a time.  Right now it's finishing up the apartment.  Then it will be my kitchen, my office, the painting of the two remaining bathrooms, the back yard...  There is so much more to do and I want the house to be presentable by the time we have our party in a month.  Would it be the end of the world if it wasn't perfect though?  Would my friends whisper and point?  I seriously doubt it.  So how do I let myself relax a little?  That is something I'm still struggling with.   I'm going to continue my quest for relaxation and the ability to let myself fail a little.  Wish me luck.

The biggest disappointment for me in the last month is the fact that I have not done one little bit of scrapping or card making.  So sad.  I have so many things I want to do!  There is a box of paper and embellishments sitting in front of me right now mocking me.  My goal before I go back to work next week is to make my Mischief pages and projects.  Pictures will be posted!!  Wish me luck everyone and thanks for listening to my crazy thoughts.